A note from Gramie.....

"Miss it my Ava" too!

The past couple of weeks started on a very stressful, emotional level for me both as Mom and Gramie.
The urgent calls.
Sarah, I can hear the fear in your voice.
Your cring, I left Ava!
...C-section now!
I hang up and now I cry "it's too early, Ellie will be so tiny, her lungs? They can't stop Sarah's bleeding."
Throw clothes in a bag... I'm so far away... I feel so helpless...

I arrive to find Sarah in recovery but still bleeding too much. Ellie is 3lbs 10oz and fighting for every breath. We will get through this...We will be strong..."Fight Sarah Fight"

Weeks have passed and I leave to go home happy, proud and much less stressed.

I am happy to hold her, to see how well Ellie is doing she gets stronger everyday. She is tiny but a fighter. She is a beautiful baby girl.

Sar, I watched you make a very quick recovery. Your inner strenght and determination have once again amazed me. I am so proud of you. Your strenght is Ellie's lifeline. She gets stronger each day because of your voice, your touch, your love. Ellie is a very lucky "little noddle" to have a Mommy and Daddy and "big sistar" that love her so much. Soon you will have her home!

These weeks have been just wonderful for me. Thank you for letting me share in this time with you.

I will miss my B.F.F. very much. This time with Ava will always be special to me. Grandbabies are truly the greatest gifts in life. I am blessed

Tell Ava Gramie says "miss you, love you, see you soon"

I love you all very much, give the girls kisses for me.

April 7th & 8th Update

Ellie is still hanging in there! As of last night, she has officially surpassed her birth weight, and is now up to 3lbs 11 1/2 ounces! Her cheeks are filling in, and she is beginning to look like her sister and her cousins!!! The next obstacle the nurses and I are trying to tackle is getting her to eat without the tube. We are bottle feeding her twice a day, anymore than that would move us backwards as she would be burning more calories then she is taking in. The morning nurse got her to take a whole ounce. But I had no such luck with her evening bottle feeding, she was more interested in sleeping. As soon as she is eating regularly, with no complications, she will come home. She has had no drops in her heart rate or respirations for quite a while now. I heard her truly cry for the first time yesterday, and it was the sweetest thing I have heard since she was born. Jeffrey changed her tiny diaper yesterday afternoon, which is a lot harder than it seems amongst all the wires, and the fact that the premie diapers are still too big on her. When I came back for the night feeding, the nurse lectured me on how to properly put on her diaper as little Ellie achieved what Uncle John refers to as "Poop Back". I explained that Daddy had changed her diaper for the first time, and we both had a good laugh at Jeffrey's expense..... He'll get the hang of it!